I have a severely deviated septum. I've been told for years that I needed to have something done with it, but I always ignored it because I was afraid it would change the way I look. Really dumb move on my part, but there it is. I have suffered for years from 3-6 sinus infections a year in addition to my year round allergies. After my sister-in-law had hers done and it didn't change how she looked, I decided I needed to do it. I have an appointment on September 2 to get the evaluation done, schedule surgery, etc., and so far, in the month of August, I have had 2 really bad sinus infections. UGH, UGH, UGH.
Really, what good are the damn things anyway? I wish I could fill them with concrete!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Another day, another post
I've been participating in Nerd Wars on Ravelry. Nerd Wars is where different teams of nerds (Doctor Who, Bones, etc.) compete against each other by completing projects that answer different challenges each month for points and glory. Right now, we're in the third month of the challenge...and I am worried I bit off more than I can chew!
I'm working on a baby blanket for a friend, and I have 4 other challenges I have to work on as well (there are 6 challenges per tournament) and I also have my dissertation....(a 3 month project) which is a sweater for Chris. I will try to post progress pics soon!
I'm working on a baby blanket for a friend, and I have 4 other challenges I have to work on as well (there are 6 challenges per tournament) and I also have my dissertation....(a 3 month project) which is a sweater for Chris. I will try to post progress pics soon!
Sunday, August 14, 2011
It has been far too long
I haven't been on here in so long. Life has taken me for a series of ups and downs but things seem to be okay now. I do know I need to be better about keeping up with this blog.....
This is what happened over the past year....
My mom died and her family decided I didn't need to know.
We lost one of our nieces, Jordann Ashleigh. She lived for 3 hours before she passed away.
I had another miscarriage at about 5 weeks.
I dealt with 2 weeks of major GI issues, but at the end of it, I can finally eat meat again!
Chris and I separated in March. We have done some hard, hard work on our relationship and ourselves and we are doing so much better than before. We see each other regularly, we go on dates, we talk every day and he is moving in with me soon.
I finally asked for help and went on to Prozac and went through some pretty intense therapy. I learned that I have a pretty severe case of Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depressive Syndrome, NOS.
My thyroid is still acting up.
I found out that I'm both B12 and Vitamin D deficient.
I also learned that I have some amazing friends and amazing people in my life. And I learned that it is okay to ask for help....
This is what happened over the past year....
My mom died and her family decided I didn't need to know.
We lost one of our nieces, Jordann Ashleigh. She lived for 3 hours before she passed away.
I had another miscarriage at about 5 weeks.
I dealt with 2 weeks of major GI issues, but at the end of it, I can finally eat meat again!
Chris and I separated in March. We have done some hard, hard work on our relationship and ourselves and we are doing so much better than before. We see each other regularly, we go on dates, we talk every day and he is moving in with me soon.
I finally asked for help and went on to Prozac and went through some pretty intense therapy. I learned that I have a pretty severe case of Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depressive Syndrome, NOS.
My thyroid is still acting up.
I found out that I'm both B12 and Vitamin D deficient.
I also learned that I have some amazing friends and amazing people in my life. And I learned that it is okay to ask for help....
Friday, June 4, 2010
Infertility sucks
Not a really cute or witty title, but it's a good one. Infertility does suck. It is singularly the worst thing I have ever experienced.
We've been trying off and on to start a family for over 3 1/2 years. During this time, I've experienced 3 miscarriages and lost a tube and an ovary to a botched test. Add to that the insensitivity of others around me. All the advice in the world isn't going to get and keep me pregnant. I have a hormonal disorder that affects fertility. It also makes it extremely hard to lose weight. Losing weight would help improve my fertility somewhat (or so they hope), but the disorder makes losing a pound just as hard for me as it is for someone else to lose 20. On top of that, my thyroid sucks. I can relax all I want and not think about and I still won't get pregnant.
Infertility sucks even more because of how it makes me feel about myself. Women should be able to get pregnant and have children. Hell, 17 year olds get knocked up all the time. But my body has failed me and I feel like a total failure sometimes when I think of it. I can achieve this honor or that degree, but I can't do the one thing my body was designed for.
All in all....infertility sucks.
We've been trying off and on to start a family for over 3 1/2 years. During this time, I've experienced 3 miscarriages and lost a tube and an ovary to a botched test. Add to that the insensitivity of others around me. All the advice in the world isn't going to get and keep me pregnant. I have a hormonal disorder that affects fertility. It also makes it extremely hard to lose weight. Losing weight would help improve my fertility somewhat (or so they hope), but the disorder makes losing a pound just as hard for me as it is for someone else to lose 20. On top of that, my thyroid sucks. I can relax all I want and not think about and I still won't get pregnant.
Infertility sucks even more because of how it makes me feel about myself. Women should be able to get pregnant and have children. Hell, 17 year olds get knocked up all the time. But my body has failed me and I feel like a total failure sometimes when I think of it. I can achieve this honor or that degree, but I can't do the one thing my body was designed for.
All in all....infertility sucks.
Monday, May 31, 2010
A lapse in time
Wow...it's been too long since I've written here. I am going to try to be much better at this. Now that some exciting changes have occured in my life, maybe I'll have more to write about.
And here are the exciting changes.
We moved....to an apartment. It's an older one but pretty spacious. We're paying slightly more rent than we were at the house we were renting, but we're not paying utilities. We're planning on eventually buying our own home and saving where we can will help that dream come true.
I got a new car. Yup, I got a little standard Mazda. It's a new model, but we're saving over $100 a month on car payments and close to $100 in gas as well.
And last, but not least, I've developed meat protein allergies. Meat protein allergies are not very common. In fact, they're pretty rare, but those who know me, know this is pretty normal for me. Like tearing the tendon in my ankle that only 1% of people ever tear, or losing my tube and ovary to an infection caused by a common medical diagnostic test. That infection had a .01% chance of occuring. I guess you could say I'm in one in a million. ;-)
Anyhow, because of the new meat protein allergy, I've had to revamp how I eat. Luckily, my husbeast is always up for a new adventure, especially when it come to food. Since I can't tolerate pork, beef, or poultry (the jury is still out on fish, but it will be awhile before we test that one) I've swwitched to a plant based diet. He happily tries and enjoys all the new foods I experiment with. At home, we've switched to a mostly vegan diet and, when out, I eat vegetarian meals if a vegan alternative isn't possible. Since my meat allergy progressed so quickly (I've had a pork allergy for years, but in the past year, the beef and poultry allergies have appeared), I am only indulging in dairy and/or egg on occasion as I do not want to develop further food allergies.
At first, I felt a bit sad about not being able to enjoy things everyone else does, but then I realized this was an interesting challenge and something that could be a lot of fun. Because we try to eat a vegan diet at home, I now cook about 99% of what we eat from scratch. With this change, both the husbeast and I feel better and we both have more energy. We're both also starting to lose weight.
I am planning to come back and write about much of what I make, etc. I am also still busy crafting, so there will be pictures of this stuff, as well. :)
Speaking of making food, dinner tonight will be broken whole wheat spaghetti mixed with a fresh tomato sauce I made (6 fresh tomatoes, 1 can of diced tomatoes, 1 fresh onion, 1 lb fresh white mushrooms, 1 lb silken tofu, 1 can of straw mushrooms, fresh garlic, olive oil, basil, pepper, red wine, and a pinch of sugar simmer gently for 35 minutes), topped with whole wheat bread crumbs and a tiny bit of vegan margarine and baked until the top was crisp. Dessert is going to be a fresh blueberry, strawberry, and kiwi fruit crumble.
And here are the exciting changes.
We moved....to an apartment. It's an older one but pretty spacious. We're paying slightly more rent than we were at the house we were renting, but we're not paying utilities. We're planning on eventually buying our own home and saving where we can will help that dream come true.
I got a new car. Yup, I got a little standard Mazda. It's a new model, but we're saving over $100 a month on car payments and close to $100 in gas as well.
And last, but not least, I've developed meat protein allergies. Meat protein allergies are not very common. In fact, they're pretty rare, but those who know me, know this is pretty normal for me. Like tearing the tendon in my ankle that only 1% of people ever tear, or losing my tube and ovary to an infection caused by a common medical diagnostic test. That infection had a .01% chance of occuring. I guess you could say I'm in one in a million. ;-)
Anyhow, because of the new meat protein allergy, I've had to revamp how I eat. Luckily, my husbeast is always up for a new adventure, especially when it come to food. Since I can't tolerate pork, beef, or poultry (the jury is still out on fish, but it will be awhile before we test that one) I've swwitched to a plant based diet. He happily tries and enjoys all the new foods I experiment with. At home, we've switched to a mostly vegan diet and, when out, I eat vegetarian meals if a vegan alternative isn't possible. Since my meat allergy progressed so quickly (I've had a pork allergy for years, but in the past year, the beef and poultry allergies have appeared), I am only indulging in dairy and/or egg on occasion as I do not want to develop further food allergies.
At first, I felt a bit sad about not being able to enjoy things everyone else does, but then I realized this was an interesting challenge and something that could be a lot of fun. Because we try to eat a vegan diet at home, I now cook about 99% of what we eat from scratch. With this change, both the husbeast and I feel better and we both have more energy. We're both also starting to lose weight.
I am planning to come back and write about much of what I make, etc. I am also still busy crafting, so there will be pictures of this stuff, as well. :)
Speaking of making food, dinner tonight will be broken whole wheat spaghetti mixed with a fresh tomato sauce I made (6 fresh tomatoes, 1 can of diced tomatoes, 1 fresh onion, 1 lb fresh white mushrooms, 1 lb silken tofu, 1 can of straw mushrooms, fresh garlic, olive oil, basil, pepper, red wine, and a pinch of sugar simmer gently for 35 minutes), topped with whole wheat bread crumbs and a tiny bit of vegan margarine and baked until the top was crisp. Dessert is going to be a fresh blueberry, strawberry, and kiwi fruit crumble.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Just let them get married
Really, just let members of the GLBTQ community get married. I don't understand the upset that people have about this particular issue. In a time where marriages are as likely to end in divorce as they are to survive*, I think that two people who are willing to pledge to spend their lives together should be given that chance. I know some people balk at the idea of calling it marriage. Call it a commitment, call it whatever you want, but let them have equal rights. I've seen many GLBQT couples whose commitment to each other has spanned DECADES. If you've spent your life with someone, you should have the same rights as any heterosexual couple.
*Divorce statistics in America for marriage
Marriage Divorce statistics (in percent)
First Marriage 45% to 50% marriages end in divorce
Second Marriage 60% to 67% marriages end in divorce
Third Marriage 70% to 73% marriages end in divorce
Source of this Divorce Statistics: Jennifer Baker, Forest Institute of Professional Psychology,Springfield
*Divorce statistics in America for marriage
Marriage Divorce statistics (in percent)
First Marriage 45% to 50% marriages end in divorce
Second Marriage 60% to 67% marriages end in divorce
Third Marriage 70% to 73% marriages end in divorce
Source of this Divorce Statistics: Jennifer Baker, Forest Institute of Professional Psychology,Springfield
Friday, January 15, 2010
Rambling on health care
I am sick, which royally sucks, but I'm privileged enough that my job provides good health insurance. That got me to thinking about who I work with. I work with kids who don't have access to on-going health care nor do they have a regular doctor. Parents have no other option than to treat the kid with home remedies or rush them to ER.
I don't know what the solution is to our health care issues, but I do know that these kids are suffering and it really breaks my heart.
I don't know what the solution is to our health care issues, but I do know that these kids are suffering and it really breaks my heart.
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